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Everything Looked Like Love
Anne Henderson has been a devotee of Avatar
Adi Da since 1976. She has served Adidam as a writer, editor,
educator, and public speaker since 1982, and as a chronicler of
Bhagavan Adi Da's Life and Spiritual Work between 1993 and 1999.
Anne currently hosts and directs the Adidam
Study Group program and serves the Third
Congregation of Adidam. She
is also an instructor
for the Adidam Academy, where she teaches several courses,
including a course
on The Knee Of Listening.
was a Friday evening and I was sitting, with my husband, reading
to him from The
Knee of Listening. At one point, we came to a passage
that I had always for decades had a negative reaction to,
stuck in the sense that Adi Da was "aggrandizing Himself"
in the words. And I hesitated, thinking
I would just skip over it as usual to avoid the confrontation.
Suddenly, I felt Bhagavan Adi Da in the room.
I glanced up from the book just as you would if someone had
walked in the door. There was only the room to be seen. The room,
however, was mysteriously transformed. There was an indescribable
"depth" and "richness" to all the simple furnishings
and colors. Everything looked like love. I was completely happy.
And, also, trapped! There was no possibility now of avoiding the
passage and all the reaction to it. My Master was fully present
and there wasnt a centimeter of "space" in which to
dramatize the ego's disturbance.
All of this had happened in the blink of an eye. I read the several
pages, with care and intention. There was a quiet profundity about
it all. By the time we finished the section, the entire reaction
had been lifted off me. I could "see" and it really
was like a visual phenomenon the total absence of everything
I had, for so long, presumed was in those words. And there was
a simple, wordless comprehension that the entire reaction had
been a projection of my own ego's self-aggrandizing tendencies.
When I told this story to the students in my Knee of Listening
class, one of them exclaimed, "He's very active, isn't He?"
He most certainly is.
I bow in love and gratitude to my Beloved Master, Adi Da Samraj.